No Longer A Spectator

“Life is not a spectator sport. If you’re going to spend your whole life in the grandstand just watching what goes on, in my opinion, you’re wasting your life.” Jackie Robinson

Those are some pretty powerful words. I actually saw them on some guys t-shirt at a ballgame a few weeks ago.  As I sat reading the words and letting them sink in, I realized how much of my own life has been wasted because I was too scared to come off the bench.

If you have been following me for a while, you know I struggle with quitting or just “half” doing things. Frustration, fear, and doubt have all prevented me from doing SO much in my life. Continue reading

Under The Big Top

“Ladies and Gentlemen, Boys and Girls, Step Right Up……Be prepared to see things you’ll wish you could un-see, and experience some death defying stunts!”

If there could be any announcement or advertisement for my life…. that would be it. From the moment I entered the earth 41 years ago till right now, my life has been a Circus. Continue reading

Ooops. My Bad.

Eating my dinner should not be complicated. I sit at the table. Pick up a utensil and start to eat.

See…. Simple.

However, apparently down South we have been doing dinner ALL wrong. When I was in college, my mom, sister and I went on a 3 day trip to NYC during the Christmas season. It was a fun trip filled with Broadway shows, Carriage rides through Central Park, and using the bathroom in EVERY major department store in the city….Hey, it’s the small things! Continue reading

Lacing Up My Boots

Getting back into a routine after a difficult and scary experience is always hard. Sometimes it is easier just to take a break and re-group. And if you’re like me…. sometimes it is easier to just quit.

If you have read anything I have written this week, you know I had a scary experience on my hike this past weekend. Even though I am a pretty experienced hiker, I learned first hand this past Saturday I didn’t know all I needed to know.

See, I am one of “those” people who always thinks disaster is going to happen to someone else.. not them. I get comfortable and cocky in my knowledge and own abilities. I’m not stupid…so nothing bad can happen. Continue reading

To Infinity and Beyond

Most of you have probably never heard of Stacey Kozel.  Don’t worry, until just recently, I hadn’t either. However, upon hearing her story, and reading about what she is attempting, I am now a HUGE fan of hers.

Two years ago lupus found it’s way into Stacey’s nervous system, causing her to become paralyzed.  She had trouble sitting up in her bed without assistance, much less walking.

What makes Stacey’s story so remarkable is how she is dealing with her new normal. There were Countless ways she could have responded. Continue reading

The Long Way

I don’t know who said it, but I need it printed on a t-shirt, bumper sticker, and a coffee mug please.  Fairly certain my picture should be right there with it as well.

I am the QUEEN of mistakes. Stupid mistakes. Silly mistakes. Totally avoidable mistakes.

You would think with each mistake I would learn…but I don’t.

Maybe it’s because my aunt dropped me on my head in the grocery store when I was a 2 year old. Maybe it was because I sat on my family’s kerosene heater when I was 5 and burned my fanny. Perhaps it was the piece of coal my friend’s brother threw at my head when I was 12. Or….maybe….I am just a little dense and Learning  things the hard way, seems to be the only way that works for me. Continue reading

Against The Grain

I have never been one to join the crowd. The thought of being like everyone else makes me…well…irritated.  Personally, I like to stand out….go opposite the flow, against the Grain.

Perhaps it is my cocky nature that compels me to go against the natural flow of things. Or maybe I am just not smart and chose to do things the long and difficult way. Either way, at the end of the day, I am me and that is all that matters.

At the ripe ole age of 41 I am still walking in the opposite direction of everyone else. By the time one reaches my age I should already be on my 2nd house, been married at least 15 years, have 2.5 kids, and have already lived out my childhood fantasies. Continue reading

Giving Up Adulting

Have you ever wanted to get to a particular Phase of your life only to say… “This sucks!”?

When we are little we can’t wait to start school, however a few years in and we realize… school is hard.

Then we can’t wait to turn into teenagers…. again… no one tells us how awkward we will be during this phase. Continue reading

Undefeated

Over the past three months I have done some amazing things.

-I completed my 100 miles hiked in the Great Smoky Mountains.
-I have Completed 4 of the 5 trails that take you to Mt. LeConte, the Crown Jewel of my Beloved Mountains
-I have gone on my first solo hike.
-I hiked 102 miles in 2.5 months.
-I have hiked 180 miles total

Not too shabby for a short, chubby, lazy gal.  If you had told me this time last year that I would be a crazy hiker chick…I would have laughed at you while I was stuffing Little Debbie Fudge Rounds in my face.

But, here I am… living my Dream of hiking all of The Great Smoky National Park, and getting some good prep  for the ultimate hike…the Appalachian Trail.

There have been days that have been difficult, but I have pushed through. Over the past 3 months I have gained knowledge, strength, and confidence. It is the confidence that could have been my demise this past weekend. Continue reading

Brick By Brick

Patience is a virtue I was not blessed with. If you were to look up impatient in the dictionary here is what you would see:

Impatience eagerly awaiting her dinner, but dude won’t stop taking pictures.

I can’t stand waiting….on anything. I expect instant results at the very snap of my fingers. Somewhere along the way I have become spoiled and well…BRATTY.  I REFUSE to abide by the old Heinz Ketchup slogan…. “The best things come to those who wait.” Continue reading