Like most people, I started 2017 off with lots of plans, goals, and hopes. January started strong, but quickly fizzled out. Before I knew it my world went into a violent tail spin and here, almost one year later, I am still not recovered. Continue reading
I am the Queen of Unfinished business. If you take a look in my guest room you will find half done knitting projects. Three scrapbooks I have attempted to put together, and an array of other “projects and hobbies” I told myself I would finish.
It’s not that I mean to bail…I just get tired, frustrated, bored, and well…..let’s face it…I’m lazy.
My mother has been trying to teach me to knit for 20 something years. It has been the source of some of our greatest fights and shouting matches. She would get me going on a couple of rows and then it happened…..the two year old fit and the same excuse……. Continue reading
It amazes me how I never stop learning. When I was younger I thought by the time I was at least 40 years old, I would have this thing called life figured out. Now at the ripe ole age of 41, I have found, I am still a mere pupil.
I would love to tell you that I am a Generous person, who gives of herself freely….but that would be a falsehood.
I am terribly selfish, greedy, and lazy. All too often I concern myself with foolish things instead of seeking how I can give to others. Now, I am not saying I am not filled with compassion, because I am, but sometimes I am too lazy or self absorbed to act on those feelings of compassion. Continue reading
I have heard it said that Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. Now, I am not going to lie, I always thought my life would END at the end of my comfort zone. I could just picture me taking a leap out of a flying plane, only to hear the pilot say as I made my exit…. “Hey! You forgot the parachute!”
I longed for adventure and change, but I could not get past the fear of what MIGHT happen if I opened myself up to it. Seriously…..so much could go wrong. What if I looked stupid? What if I totally botched it? What if I thought I was totally rocking it and I fell flat on my face? Continue reading
T.S. Elliot once said, “Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.” So many of us stand on the sidelines looking at life and say, “I could never do that?” But how do we truly know that to be true unless we try?
My whole life I have been a dreamer. There were all sorts of goals and life accomplishments I wanted to experience. Some I achieved and succeeded at, but others… well if they required too much I just brushed it off… “That’s too hard. Definitely not for me.”
Maybe getting older has made me more reflective, but after turning 40 I started taking inventory of my life. When I looked back one thing was painfully obvious….. Continue reading
Those are the exact miles I have hiked in the past 5.5 months. What started as another harebrained idea of mine, has ended up changing my life. I was a sad and broken soul, desperate for change. My purpose was lost, and I needed to find it.
What I found was something much, much greater. Continue reading
Have you ever just gotten so bored with day to day life?
Sit in traffic.
Go to work.
Do 500 errands.
Go to bed.
Perhaps you feel like you are sitting in the classroom of Ben Stein in Ferris Bueller’s Day Off….. Continue reading
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes to keep on breathing
These were the words I heard as I started my car this morning to head to work. I knew the song well, even though it had been a while since I had heard it. As I entered my car, there was no better way to describe me then by these words…
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world Continue reading
Have you ever had one of those days where you wake up feeling pretty good, excited about the possibilities of the day ahead only to be hit with a cloud of discouragement, worry, fear, regret, confusion, and anxiety? A literal rain on your parade kinda day.
It is not that there is necessarily anything wrong or bad that occurs….it just happens.
And now….you are stuck…. in what I call an Alexander Day. Continue reading
I like to think I am a pretty Open-Minded individual. However, there are times I fall into the trap of judgment. I don’t mean to… it just sorta happens. When I do, I am often left humbled and ashamed for my thoughts. We are all different. That is what makes us wonderful. How utterly boring it would be if we were all just alike.
Why then is different still scary? Continue reading